This is fucked.

So I am heading to Fiji tomorrow, everyone else would be excited, but yeah. I just miss my girl, I have been away from her for a couple of days now and I just miss her so fucking much, not been able to hold her or kiss her or see that amazing smile that is accompanied by those absolutely breath taking blue eyes. After not sleeping without her for over 2 months been in this hotel room alone does not feel good. I need her more than I thought, I need to kiss her and just feel her breath so I can feel the slightest bit alive. I have had such a bad run with girls and have been cheated on by a few, hurt so many times that for a while I just went fuck it and started to sleep around with everyone. I made a really bad name for myself where I live. She chose to ignore the talk and my past and be with me and I have treated nothing short of a princess ever since the day our relationship began. She knows I miss her and I know I miss her. I guess what I realized was that it doesn’t matter where I am(or going) in the world unless I have the girl I live with me I will never truly be happy.